This week has been really hard on me. Adjusting is very easy but teaching has become so hard for me. You will get a letter probably today or tomorrow. Transfers were hard. The apartment is small and really old. Elder Matthews is really cool and smart. My bike is doing very well, We get groceries on the bikes, its right across the street from our apartment. I’ve adjusted ok I guess. We email at the Church.
MONDAY- so it was p day and we started the day off by emailing and going and saying goodbye to people. It was hard to say goodbye but I will meet new people. Then we played bball and that was the day.
TUESDAY- today I spent the day packing and getting ready to leave. We went to Walmart and talked to people and then we went to the Underwoods for dinner and just said goodbye to them and thanked Bro Underwood for fixing my bike. Then we went home and I finished packing and that was our day.
WEDNESDAY- Today was the day I left Wetumpka. I got up and packed the clock and the fan and waited for the zls to show up. They eventually showed up and we began our 2 hour drive to Birmingham. When we got there Elder Butterfield went into his trainer meeting and I was just talking to missionaries. Then the meeting started and they told us to go find our next comp. I found Elder Matthews. After the meeting we went and said goodbye to a bunch of people. Then we started the journey back home. I was scared and nervous. But when we got there we went to Dominos and he introduced a resent convert Breanna. She is very cool and she knows the gospel soo well. Then after that we went back home and ended the night.
THURSDAY- We went out and tried to see this guy named Joshua but he wasn't home. Then we went and saw Breanna and Elder Matthews taught her the last lesson in the resent convert lessons. We spent 3 hours there and then we went to see this guy named Eric. We just asked him when would be a great time to come back and so he said tomorrow at 5pm. So we went and saw some other people and ended the night with dinner at the Reeves.
FRIDAY- Today was also a hard morning for me because I know that I’m a bad teacher. I know nothing. We had a little talk in the morning and then after lunch we went out for the day. We tried to go see Eric but he wasn’t home. So we met this lady Rose who had lessons with the missionaries before but they moved and the new ones never went and saw her. So we kind of talked about the Book of Mormon and asked her when was a good time we should come back? She said any day; I’m in and out of my house. So later that night we went over to our mission leader’s house to have Ward coordination. Then after that we ended the night.
SATURDAY- We had a long talk in the morning and then we went out at 130. We went and tried to see Joshua but he wasn't home followed by a bunch of people not wanting to answer the door. Then we went back to the Apartment because Elder Matthews wasn't feeling too well. After he had a 2 hour nap we went and tried to contact less actives but we didn’t have any success on doing that. So then we came in and had dinner and then tried to see some people but that was a bust so we went back and ended the night.
SUNDAY- so church starts at 1pm here so we basically stayed in until church started. I studied so hard but we ended up having a long conversation of why I’m out here and why I’m soo scared of people. We went to church and went to pec and talked about investigators and then we went to sacrament meeting. The bishop was gonna have me bear my testimony but the talks were too long. Then we went and saw the ZLS. They were just getting out of church so we talked to them and then went to Priesthood. They had me bear my testimony and tell them a little about myself. We went to Elders Quorum and they had me bear my testimony there. After church one of the members gave us a ride home. Then we had a long discussion about my testimony if I even have one. We had a long conversation about how I don’t know things and stuff like that. Then we went to dinner over at the Roots place and after dinner we went and he had me practice the Restoration on a member. I think I did ok. Then we went home.
MONDAY- Today was a lot harder on me. I was the one that had to do all the contacting and stuff like that. We had the same discussion that I don’t know anything about our religion. I’m serious I don’t. I screwed up us tracking by just going right into the restoration and not telling the guy anything about Mormons. Then out on the side walk Elder Mathews told me straight up that that was the worst thing he’s ever seen. We talked and then went to a dinner appointment with this family. I was supposed to do the spiritual thought but Elder Matthews took it over. Then we went home. During the day Elder Matthews fell on his bike and was bleeding, we went home and he dressed all of it up.
TUESDAY- I got up and started studying the Plan of salvation and then Elder Matthews got up and said he wasn’t feeling too good. He wanted me to teach the Plan of Salvation to him. I tried but it didn’t work. We had a discussion and then the ZLS picked us up and took us to the church and here we are now. Later tonight we have a dinner appointment and we are going on splits, so I’m on my own tonight and I’m supposed to teach the Plan of Salvation to this guy Stan. I’m so nervous and scared for it. I’m studying today really hard for it. So that’s been my long week.
Elder Mathews is just telling me stuff how it is. I CANT TEACH. I’m scared every day. I try to get out of being scared, but it just gets me. He’s trying to find a way to teach me but it took him a week to teach me some of the restoration. He asked me why am I still out here? He doesn't know what to do with me. I’m trying to learn but it takes time. I’ve cried everyday here because I’m trying to learn but it’s taking way too much time. He basically told me that he’s scared of these next 6 weeks because of how I don’t know this. I’m scared too of what’s gonna happen. I can’t even start a conversation with people about the gospel and who Mormons are.
I’m studying preach my gospel. I just want to feel peace. That’s all. I’m stressed out all the time because I may not know what to say; sometimes I don’t even have the spirit. I’m still going to do my best. I’m studying right now just so I won’t screw it up tonight. I’ll try to be more of myself. I just need to get over fear. I pray every day that it will get better. I was expecting a huge change. But I know it takes time.
My studies aren't that good. I try to study as much as I can but I just don’t get the lessons that easy. You know that I have had a learning problem which leads into a teaching problem. I’m trying to keep my head up and do everything I can to know this stuff. I’ve been looking at the book you gave me a lot to get my mind off of things.
We are the only Elders in our area. We don’t play bball anymore. Elder Mathews doesn’t like to play it. Like we have fun conversations but we are just focused on the work. He’s really obedient. That can be hard at times. I am just living one day at a time trying to make it to the next day. I just have to keep doing what’s right.
We went and gave a blessing to this guy on Sunday but that’s the only thing. I’m just soo scared. But I will try my best to try to learn this stuff.
Well we are leaving I will always be thinking of you!!!
LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!!!!
Elder Webb
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